what I love is Kieran’s neutrality
I feel like he went through the same faze as Jem, of not wanting to be seen or heard. Not wanting to make a sound, or have people notice him; which is why when Jem went through her phase of walking on her tiptoes, Kieran knew EXACTLY what to do, because he knew how she felt.
I think that is why Kieran has this deadset, stubborn as hell neutrality. Especially after what happened to Rick, how he blamed himself for both of Ricks deaths, Kieran doesnt want to be noticed.
So he plans to go away, if he’s in another country, nobody will know him. If no one knows him, nobody will know he’s PDS. He won’t stick out
But he can’t, he’s told there’s no way he’s allowed to leave
so he puts his head down, and he does his work. He ignores all of Amy’s ULA stuff, because he knew Amy before she knew the ULA, so they can still have a connection without the ULA.
Then he meets Simon, and he likes Simon. He likes spending time with him, talking to him.
But Simon is SUPER involved in the ULA, and thinks everyone else should be too, so what does Kieran do? He tells Simon, specifically “Keep me out of this”
and at first, Simon doesn’t get it. He thinks that Kieran is choosing the other side; he thinks that Kieran is choosing to ignore the discrimination and all in favour of the HVS/RPS
it isn’t until the thing with Freddie, that Simon really sees: Kieran doesn’t like this, he doesn’t like the discrimination, or the way he’s being treated.
Because that’s the thing: Kieran doesn’t like people being upset, which is why he tells the PDS people to put on their mousse, their contacts. It’s also why he saves all the rabid PDS sufferers
I think that when Simon see’s who Kieran really is, that’s when he starts to get a sense of wonder, of adoration
because I dont think Simon likes, or loves the ULA. We see that Simon is driven to the ULA because of the way his father acts when he gets out of Norfolk
Kieran presents a new place for Simon to go, a place where he doesn’t have to be an extremist
but Simon still believes in the ULA, so he keeps them apart
his life with Kieran, and his ULA involvement
until he realises that he can’t have both, and I think that is when he starts to understand that Kierans ideas are good, that Kieran is more important to him than some weird prophet guy